Monday 5th November

Bonfire Night

Weight - 145 lbs (10 st 5 lbs)
Loss - 2 lbs
Lbs to lose - 22 +

We aren't going to any Bonfire do's though I did buy some sparklers. R and J did come along with me to their cousins bday aprty Friday night and there were fireworks then (see pics below)

R and her cousin with sparklers
I went to a leaving party the other night and here are 3 of the people who work in the Eye Department (I won't put their names as they might not like it). J on the far left - it was her party, she is leaving to go to Australia, I (and everyone) will really miss her, she is really nice. She's an Optomatrist, middle one also J is Office Manager and S on far right is clerk who works in Choose and Book. There were lots of people at the party.

PLAN FOR TODAY

Eat healthily
Do more painting of hall (is not finished)
Go to gym after school with R

Good morning (it's 8.15am. R said she is a bit achey, I am ok (maybe did not workout hard enough yesterday in gym?). I appear to have lost 2 lbs this week whic is good - this is what I want EVERY week to lose a 1 or 2.

ambidextrous - I wouldn't say that I was totally ambidextrous, but for as long as I can remember, the way I do certain things is not right-handed. For eg: when the kids were babies I could only ever feed them with the head in the crook of my right arm holding the bottle with my left hand - doing it the other side felt totally foreign, in fact I could not feed them the other way.
I wear my watch on my right hand and always have done.
When I do my blood tests I test my right hand (using left hand to perform test
I CAN write with my left hand quite easily though not as fast as with right hand and not quite as neat.When I fold my arms my left arm is on top and the right is underneath (though I think a lot of people fold their arms this way)...........weird eh!!!!!

Some of the reccomendations as per the BIG cancer study that has recently been done.

BODY FATNESS
Be as lean as possible within the normal range of body weight
PHYSICAL ACTIVITY
Be physically active as part of everyday life
FOODS AND DRINKS THAT PROMOTE WEIGHT GAIN
Limit consumption of energy-dense foods
Avoid sugary drinks
PLANT FOODS
Eat mostly foods of plant origin
ANIMAL FOODS
Limit intake of red meat and avoid processed meat
ALCOHOLIC DRINKS
Limit alcoholic drinks
PRESERVATION, PROCESSING, PREPARATION
Limit consumption of salt
Avoid mouldy cereals (grains) or pulses (legumes)
DIETARY SUPPLEMENTS
Aim to meet nutritional needs through diet alone

J txt'd me to meet him from school so I did - 2 mile walk (along with the 2 mile walk I did too and from the village this morning). Got soaked on way home with J, he just had time for a sandwich and a cup of tea before going back to school. It's 2pm and have not had lunch yet (though did have a handful of cashew nuts (97 cals).

R and I got to the gym straight after school. We did some of the machines (though I don't think either of us tried very hard today) then we went in the pool for 45 minutes which was nice.............................ok I will admit it we did spoil it all by having tea out as I was so not organised and by the time Neil picked us up from the gym at 6.45pm we were STARVING then J phoned asking what was for tea - so we went to the pub. I had cauliflower cheese tart with new potatoes and salad, one onion rign and 2 small slices of garlic bread then followed it with apple pie and custard. MMmmmmmmmmmmmm. Just as well the pub does 2 meals for the price of one. J's friend Dan came along too.I have said to R and Neil that we cannot EVER do this again after the gym! I am planning on going to the gym on Wed afternoon after work.

UNREALISTIC I THINK

Ideal weight range is 100 - 110 lbs. (45.5 - 50 kg.). (7 st 12 lbs)
You are overweight by 35 lbs. (16 kg.).

According to a NHS web site I am 35 lbs overweight and should weigh only 7 st 12 lbs at the most (110 lbs). Maybe I could get down to this weight if I really really tried? Do I want to? Not really. I think I want to get a a point where I am happy with how I look regardless of what the scales say.

 The man is here to do the kitchen. I thought he was just coming to take me to get worktops today, but no, he has started on kitchen. He is taking me to get worktops tomorrow 1pm after work. At the moment we have no sink in the kitchen, though the water is on upstairs.

Eye is fine need to get it re-checked in 3 months - in meantime need to keep blood sugars as perfect as I can and cholesterol and BP down as low as I can.

Do not want to particularly cook in kitchen as it is at moment, but we simply cannot go out for tea again nor can we get a takeaway (can we?)

I have been ok so far on diet. I hate that word DIET!

What the heck is wrong with me? Why does it all go to pieces in the evening, why am I SO weak willed in the evening? What MADE me buy those cream cakes? WHY did I eat 2 of those cream cakes?

Caught sight of myself in the gym mirrors the other day OMG. I did a double take. Who was that short FAT person in the grey t-shirt. OMG it was me. I could see my flabby self from all abgles - oh it was like a horror film. SO WHY AM I BUYING CREAM CAKES FOR HEAVEN SAKES?

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I am going to the gym tomorrow (yes again, as is RHi - she wants to go after school) and I will do more, I WILL sweat and I will enjoy it (Actually I do really enjoy the gym, it makes me feel good)

 Wed 7th November 2007

 Today I am working half day, going to get worptops with kitchen bloke (to Liverpool) in afternoon. Getting R from chool and going to the gym (yippeeeeeee)

Did not go to gym after all as was too late (went to Liverpool with Kitchen bloke and it took longer than expected so too tired to go to gym and too cold actually - omg it was cold out today I thought.

I DID do 2 hours dancing class in the evening and it was great fun.

Am fed up - that is all I am going to day about today.
Must go to gym tonorrow - I need to. Kitchen Bloke has finished tiling but not the grouting. Think we have a leak from washing machine/or dishwasher - bloody typical.
Work ok...actually no it wasn't in parts....am disgruntled - that is the only was I can think to put it. All I want is an uncomplicated pleasent day, not much to ask for is it. Rarely turns out that way though. Why are some work related issues so niggly, so damn well not worth stressing over (or is that just what I do, stress over what is not worth stressing over?)......makes me eat though, makes me stress eat.
I have to go to the gym tomorrow, I have to...also may go dancing if I can.

 Good day in work
R and I went to the gym after she had done her clarinet lesson. We spent an hour in the gym which was good - we are plamming on going tomorrow and Sunday too.
Kitchen is finished, well the units and tiling, there's still
small amount of skim plastering to do
Painting of walls
And laying of floor (when we decided what is best to put down)

My diet is seriously bad at the moment. I go from a good meal to bad eating all too easily.
Tomorrow (yes always tomorrow), I WILL eat better and think twice before I eat (anything bad). I bought some nice fresh fish today (smoked haddock and some cod) - due to my friend Rachel saying she had fish the other day.

 We are going shopping for a few bits and bobs for the kitchen. Might try and persuade Neil to take me to IKEA tomorrow in Warrington.

Am going to the gym sometime later today. Tonight there is a kine dance evening in aid of the Methodist Church and our class is doing the evening (dancing) so I am going along to that.

I am going to try my best to eat properly today (although am longing to go out for breakfast)