Monday 3rd Sept
Weight - 10 st 2 lbs
(142 lbs)
Gain - 4 lbs

I just know, I know I have gained weight .....so here goes.......

Well I gained 4 lbs....I suppose it's not too bad after a 2 week holiday? Ah well.
J is in school today (his new school), though it is only for a few hours.

Now today starts the healthier eating....todays exercise is yep - housework!!!! The kitchen is unrecognisible as all the holiday stuff is strewn around it.
I need to start eating properly, more balanced meals and aim to do some exercise EVERY day............
Neil has gone back to work (I go back on Wed).
I want to feel better (at moment I do feel stressed) and my palpitations have come back.

When you come back from holiday..things are a bit flat. I seemed to have spent so long looking forward to going away for 2 weeks and now it's been and gone. I am lucky in that I am having a long weekend away with my dance class at the end of November though.

Tuesday 4th Sept

J has gone into school today for a full day of 'team building' whatever that involves!? R and I are going to chill out before she goes back to school tomorrow and I go back to work.
Plans, what plans do I have?
Eat healthier
Exercise more (some)
Get blood sugars perfect
Relax more (both Neil and I need to do this), we need to spend more time together chilling out.

Managed to do some step in the day (Yippeeeeee) and ok, when we went to Tesco earlier I did scoff 2 (yes 2) Flakes - but I am still within the cal allowance for the day (double yippeeeeee) and GUESS WHAT

My work uniform is NO tighter!!!!! Although I just popped it in the washing machine and ermmmmm (we know that EVERYTHING shrinks in the wash doesn't it)......we shall see!!!!!!!!!

Thank you Linds for your lovely email, made me feel better.

Thur 6th Sept

Arghghghghghg I've blown up.

I have had white toast for brekky, a roll for lunch in work and a baguette for tea.......and now I am SO bloated. OMG why, why did I eat so much bread. I know it's the bread. When I make an effort and cut down on the bread I dopn't get so bloated at all.

Has anyone got a pin

Plan for tomorrow - get up 6am to 6.30 am (hopefully! Walk halfway to work. Have a short walk round hospital grounds in my lunchtime. Do some sort of exercise after tea (eg step etc). No dancing tomorrow night unfortunately.

Friday 7th Sept

Me 9th August this year. Mmm....might go darker??/ Dunno?????

Good but slightly tiring day in work.

No dancing tonight, hopefuly it'll be on next week, I am looking forward to going back to it.

Well the weather is supposed to be ok over the weekend and I am hoping to go for a nice long walk tomorrow with Neil and R and J if he is not doing anyhting with his friends. I just feel I need some fresh air and I need to relax and get out.

This pic of me was taken in February this year when I had dyed my hair darker (and no one really liked it unfortunately, though I quite like it darker). Been thinking about doing it darker again, though not too dark. Anyway................there's this web site called Bored.Com (things you do eh!!!) and on it is a site called Real Age, you upload your pic and people have to guess your age and they average out the vote and say what average age people think you are!!!!!!

Put the above pic up oh ages ago and then logged on the other night to see if I had had any votes - well I'd had all of 2 (there are trillions of people's pics up there). Anway HA HA guess what age these 2 people think I am (and no, I have not guessed my own age!) - well, my vote is 17.

HA can you believe it 17 (well yes I was 17 ermmmm......27 years ago!!!!!!!!! Mind you the pics is slightly bluured (thus hiding my lines and bags and wrinkles)....but still!!!!!!!!! That so made my day!!!!

Saturday 8th Sept

R's Cyberbike is not working. Today we put it on (tried it out on the TV) and it does not work properly. Heaven knows why not. I emailed the company and they have emailed back quickly but OMG I am so bloody stressed about it all. All I want is the damn thing to work. I was very tempted to just bung the whole thing back in the box and take it to the local tip (ok, so a waste of £100 but worth getting rid of the damn stress of it) Arghghghghghg.

Well, don't know what's going to happen now, the company have said it is best they look at it, so somehow or other we have to get it to them (I'll be damned if I am paying for the carriage). OH god why are things never simple?????

I'm stressed cos

1. Money probs
2. Feeling guilty cos I worry about R's weight and feel I (or we) should do more to help her
3. Am not being very good on my diet (what diet)

Awwwwhh whatever..........you know when you can just feel this damn grey cloud coming your way - well, I can anyway. Silly really, worrying about..well, silly stuff, stuff like the CBike...like it really matters. Ok so we wasted some money and it's causing some stress (not likes it's the 1st time) ha.

Ok enough moaning about trivial things. I am going to get on with my life. Get more active (both myself and the kids and Neil) and damn well stop worrying all the damn time.

Ok enough damns!!!!!!

R's bubble that she blew yesterday with a cheapie bubble mix from Tesco's - made some fabulous HUGE bubbles and they are so pretty.

Well the kids are up, I've made the sandwiches and we are ready to go off on our day out to Moel Fammau. Let's hope I burn some of those 800 cals I had extra yesterday!!!!!