Monday 25th June 2007

My hair in morning before we left the house (nice and straight)

My hair when we got home (after the rain!)....arghghg it always goes curly in the rain.
And why do I always look knackered when I get back from a day out?? When my hair goes curly, looking tatty and unkempt from the rain, my skin looks wrinkled and tired and I just look knackered and old and horrid. Arghghg. Well you can't tell exactly in these pics as I have 'grained' them with Photoshop so as to hide the knackeredness. And why do I always smile in such a dorky way?.

Extract from my diary dated September 1986 (I was 22)

......My hair is a mess, perm's frizzy and the colour's awful. I did some exercises last night. I'll do some tonight before I go to sleep. I'll have to eat less too, at the moment I weigh 7 and a half stone (105 lbs)......

I remember I always thought I was FAT, always. Makes me sad really to read all the old diaries and see how depressed I got over my weight, how I thought no one would ever like me (ie boys) cos I was too FAT.

Nothing's changed then!!!! Well, you know what I mean. I am still going on about how FAT I am (ok, am quite a bit fatter now so it's understandable)...but still..............

reading over all the years and years of how FAT I felt and how I let it rule my days...why on earth didn't I just get on with my life and like myself? And more to the point, why don't I do that now?????

Off to Liverpool this morning with J (and Neil - Neil has a morning meeting there). J and I are going to go round the shops, though it is very grey out there and of course raining.

Do not want to face the scales this morning, so I am not going to. Will get weighed in the morning.

Liverpool was wet, very wet. We did go to Quiggins which I love going to.
Neil got stuck in his meeting and did not come home with us.

Been on the web site Bored.Com.hehe, there's loads of stuff on it. Well according to Celebrity Love Match, I am 100% perfect match to James Spader (at first I thought Who???? but on seeing the pic I know who he is) HaHa....Actually he's quite cute, well, in this pic anyway!!!

Tuesday 26th June 2007

Weight - 10 st 2 lbs
(142 lbs)
Stayed same

BFast - Cereal, skim milk
Lunch - Ham salad sandwich, a ww dessert
Anoon - Go ahead cereal bar
Tea - Chicken curry, mixed salad and fruit
Eve - 4 ww toast

Stayed the same weight this week.....ah damn. Well, it is to be expected since I don't think I am trying too hard. What I need is some sort of action plan. I did get a book with the Reductil (which I am still taking by the way). It had week by week guidlines in it. Perhaps I had better go back to the beginning of this and follow their advice to the letter if I want any chance of losing say 10 lbs or so by our summer holiday.
It can be done, but with effort. 8 weeks to our summer holiday

Went to sister-in-laws in the afternoon with Neil's mum and dad for a coffee which was nice. Am going to aim to do some sort of exercise later, maybe on the step? So far so good today with food

What is it with me and tea and toast at bedtime? I gotta get out of this habit!!!! Also, I did not do any exercise, damn and now it's 10.30pm and am too knackered too anyway. Hmmmmm think I'll settle in bed and read my book.

Have I always been this boring? Looking back over old web site stuff from when I was (I repeat WAS) losing weight, I was funnier I am sure and not as boring and I had more to say, stuff that was more interesting. OMG I am so boring now.

Wed 27th June

Bfast-Cereal, skim milk and fruit
Lunch - Cottage cheese salad
Tea - Cous cous and stir fry veggies

Well, I have actually been quite good again today (so far). I am going dancing tonight for an hour.

Thursday 28th June

B/F - Cereal,smilk
Lunch - Couscous+veg+0%greek yog
Tea - Chicken nuggest, ww bread and 2 potato waffles
Eve - Ww strawberry mousse.

Ate a bit crappily today. I did 2 hours dancing last night which I really enjoyed. We are doing a dance to Mika's Lollipop and one to Head Over Heels (Abba) which I love - I love that song, it's so....catchy! Am also going to do 2 hours dancing tomorrow night in Thornton Hough.
Walked half way to work this morning, very hot/sunny but rained the rest of the day.
Another exciting day eh!!!!

Saturday 30th June

I did 2 hours dancing last night and really enjoyed it. I have decided to go on one of the dance weekends. This one is being held in Norfolk (I think!) and is Fri-Sat-Sun-come home Mon @ £137 full board.
It's not that I am mega into line dancing as such, but well, a weekend away (on my own!) sounds good, well, actually it's with a coachful of people and there will be tons of other people at the event too.
I have just booked and paid for, for tickets to see Bowling For Soup at Manchester Apollo in October. J and Neil like them, I've heard some of their stuff they sound ok. Click here to see video (on seperate page)

I have got to get healthier. I don't feel particularly healthy at the moment, I just don't. I am not eating in a healthy way and not getting enough exercise. I drank way too much wine last night and am going to stop doing this - gonna avoid alcohol. Felt achy and crap all day and suffered from palpitations on and off all day.
I have got to look after myself more.
Neil been in a pissy mood all day, oh bloody great NOT.

Meant to say, I took R swimming yesterday. I did not feel like going to be honest but I am glad I did as we had a great time. We had such fun and I am so impressed at how she has progressed since doing lessons with school. We had a really nice time.
She had her first extra clarinet lesson on Friday after I'd finished work. She has a lesson in school and enjoys it so much and I found out one of the secretaries at work does lessons so I asked if R could have one with her every other week.
I stayed with R for the lesson. She plays so well and I am always impressed with how she can read the music. Both her and J have musical talent (N too). I am the only one who cannot play a thing!!