Monday 12th March 2007

Weight - 10 st 6 lbs (146 lbs)
Gain - 1 lb unfortunately

A figure I bought the other day.

Pretty

Some pics of me and R.

Well as you can see I gained a lb. Basically I am getting nowhere and am not happy about it. I realise though that I have just got to make more of an effort or I will never lose this weight.

As long as I am more active, eat healthier then I should surely lose the weight - and if I don't. then I don't know what the heck to do?

I don't look vastly overweight in my pictures, but for my height I am at least 20 lbs too heavy which isn't good with arthritis and diabetes.All I can do is keep trying.

It's 11.15am and I am sitting here at the computer thinking about how hungry I am (or think I am). I might just go and make myself an omelete otherwise I will end up stuffing my face with hot buttered toast or something. Actually we have bugger all in the fridge or cupboards, in fact I haven't got a clue what to give the kids for tea tonight? Arghghghghghghg and it's not payday till towards of end of next week.

I had a tasty pepper omelet and a wholemeal roll for my lunch Mmmm. And tonight I will do everyone soup and a sandwich then fruit for tea.

I hovered the stairs, tidied the kitchen (as much as is possible) and really should now get on with cleaning the bathroom...but can I be bothered, er....no. How lazy am I? I have decided to walk to work on Thursdays amid Fridays as long as it is not pouring down with rain or I have slept in too late (I have to leave the house at 7.30am to walk to work). I get a lift to work with Elaine (the woman I job share with) on a Wednesday, so I could walk on Thur and Fridays........just think how much it would help me lose weight? Surely it would?
That's the plan this week anyway. I need SOME exercise.

If the weather is ok this weekend then R and I will wash the car, should be fun as she usually soaks me!!!!

R and I had a nice tea together (I was hoping J would be with us but he has not come home yet, he has probably met up with some friends in the village as he often does after school for a few hours). I asked Neil to get me some sugar free gum on the way home (this helps me stop snacking). I do not want to snack later if I can help it.

BELOW - EXTRACTS FROM PREVIOUS DIARY

Wednesday 6th June 2001

Today I bought myself 2 new t-shirts, size xl (extra-large). I thought about buying a dress but I look too dumpy for a dress (makes me look even shorter and fatter!!) I am not getting weighed today cos I have been to the dentist and Judith is coming round tomorrow - so I WILL get weighed tomorrow. Had chips off the chippy last night, wish I hadn't, I don't even like them that much.

Thursday 7th June 2001 11st 5 lbs(159lbs)

Well, I'm just waiting for Judith to come round so we can get weighed. I feel as though I have lost weight (as in, it's not a 'fat day' today). We'll see!!!!!
OK, OK so I put weight on, just 1 lb. Judith came round (she put 2 lb on) and we have both decided that from next week each time we put weight on we will have to put extra money in the tins. NO MORE CRAPPY EATING, NO MORE NIBBLING, NO MORE TAKE-AWAYS.

pic taken week 44 as below

Slimming World Week 44

Monday 2nd September 2002
Ok here we go again, another weigh-in day. I feel I ate badly last week. Mainly I have not been bothering to plan or do any cooking so I have just grabbed things as I have gone along.

Weight This Week = 9 st 10 lbs (136 lbs)
Loss = 1 lb
Total Lost So Far = 30 lbs

How did I do it?? How, how?? But I'm glad I did!!! Saw a woman today who I haven't seen for ages and she commented on my weightloss. It is Sooooooooo nice when people notice. Mainly my friends don't cos they see me so often. Steve used the word 'skinny' argghhhhhhhhhh.......that is so motivating...I want to be truly skinny. Ok, so I will never be stick thin (wouldn't want to be). Even at my lowest weight of 8 st (112 lbs) you could never say I was thin. I am hoping that by kosing another 16 lbs or so I will finally lose my 'stomach' . Yikes...I hope so!!!

Tuesday 3rd September

Judith came round and we went to the park to play tenniswith the kids, the balls were flying everywhere!! Grrrrrrrr.....we went shopping to Tesco last night, with very few £'s I might add, so no buying junk food. N wanted a small chocolate fix, so I thought Mmmmm I could have one since I lost 1 lb this week (yes..good sensible reasoning). So I had a snickers bar. Bought some cheap chocolate desserts for the kids (I ate just 2 of them). On a roll or what!!!!!!!!!????? Judith is going to join Slimming World next week (I bet she has a good old 'pig' out the rest of this week (I would!)

Wednesday 4th September

Ha, have been in such a mood today, everything has got on my nerves, just everything. Even eating has gotten on my nerves.I am thoroughly fed up with my stomach (as in the size of it)YUCK it is so there and I want rid of it NOW. Doesn't matter what I wear to disquise it...I know it's there....it's round and too BIG. That's not why I have been in a mood but it has not helped. And it's not PMS (or PMT whatever you call it), it's just plain old being in a bad mood all day!!

Friday 6th September

I bought some chocolate (for the kids - they do so well for chocolate and desserts and things, me being a good mother n all) and have been nibbling it (well eating it in big chunks really). So I had no evening meal (for my pennance) - ok, so did not feel like eating cos the chocolate made me sick). So what a waste of calories or what. Why didn't I just have a small ammount of choccy and have left it at that - a nice little treat???? No....not me.....would I do that?

Sunday 8th September

Arrrrrrrrrrgh, I don't want to get weighed tomorrow really I don't. Can I stand being told I have gained weight??? My own fault of course - have been eaten crappily again all week despite promises to myself that I wouldn't. N did well and is now down to 18 st again (after holiday gain)(that's 252 lbs). I want to make an effort, I want to get my weight going down again. I cannot wait till R goes to school then I can go and do some exercise at the gym (joints allowing of course). I should do some new photos for the photos page (when I am in a less FAT mood).

Monday 7th October 2002
Wonder how I will do today?? I don't know how I did it.....I mean yes I stuck to the eating plan, very much so..and I have stayed the same for almost a month (and gained 1 lb) But I have lost 6 lb.......yes a WHOLE 6 pounds since last week. Taking me down to 9 and a half stones (133 lbs). It still hasn't sunk in!! Trouble is I am too scared to eat ANYTHING now (don't wanna gain next week).!! Oh I am sure my appetite will kick in!!!! I have been on the phone ringing up everyone telling them how well I did this week, I kind of ran out of people to phone...and ran out of steam. Neil happened to ring not long after I got home from my meeting and was thrilled. . Everyone's idea of what is overweight or not is totally different..I have very skinny friends who moan about being 'fat'. Aimed (like Instant messanger) Steve and I think he was quite amazed!!!

Monday 31st March 2003

I was good for most of last week and I did an awful lot of walking and some gym and a 2 hour line dance class - so let's hope this has done the trick and gotten me into the 8 st's!!! PLEASE. I know the gym scales said 8 st 13 lbs last Wednesday.......but obviously the days imbetween!!!!!!! Well..damage can be done unfortunately. It's about 20 minutes before I go get weighed and I am getting butterflys!! I want the scales to say 8 st something so much...and oh, I do hope they do. I certainly feel slimmer today!! A dress arrived from America that I have been waiting for for ages and ages and I tried it on and it fits beautifully, will put photo up later). I am getting nervous.
YES I made it. I am now 8 st 13 lbs. I am so glad, I have not been in the 8 st's since 1990 when I first met Neil.
Now I need to make sure I eat properly this week so I maintain this weight and even better, lose more!!

Slimming World Weigh-In 5th May 2003

Weight this week = 8 st 7 lbs (119 lbs)
Lost = 4 lbs (how????)
Total Lost So Far = 3 st 5 lbs (47 lbs)
Lbs to go to target = 0(OMG!!!!!)I did it I got to my target weight!!
Well I went along to Slimming World and got weighed and I got to target today. I really truly got to target, I am the weight I have been aiming for for 12 years. I am 8 st 7 lbs (119 lbs). I cannot believe it, I really can't. I actually lost 4 lbs this week (don't ask me how)??

Monday 12th March again (back to the future!)

Had a healthy tea and have been reading my old diary to try and get me motivated to try harder.

I managed to get through the evening without snacking but why oh why does the tv have to have adverts for cadburys creme eggs? OH I could so have eaten a few of those(yep at least 2 or 3 of them).

Tuesday 13th March 2007

Along the River Mersey

Some houses in New Brighton

Along the prom

It is nice and sunny out but still a bit cold. I am just having a cup of coffee before I get started on the bedrooms. If I sit down for too long I end up doing nothing.

Today I am going to eat healthily. I really am, no picking or snacking. I have just rung my mother and father in law to see if they are going out anywhere this morning and might I be able to go with them. They go out a lot each day doing lots of walking.
They said they are off to Vale Park so I am going to go with them in about half an hour which is nice. Oh dear that means I will have to do the housework later, what a pity!!!

I really enjoyed my walk round Vale Park and New Brighton, here are some pics I took.

We did a lot of walking and got home about 1pm (went out at 10.15am). Much much nicer than staying in the house and doing housework!!!!

I went linedancing tonight to a different class (my friend Sue rang to say she was going). We did an hour. It was good, I enjoyed it, the class was run by a bloke who works with Neil at the Line dance office at Champion Newspaper in Southport. I am glad I went - more exercise means weight loss hopefully!!!! Trouble is...I want to eat now!!!

Wednesday 14th March 2007

Ok morning in work, it went quite quickly. R had a friend home for tea (naughty boy in class), arghghghg but nice for her to have someone round. I did eat a small chocolate biscuit in a moment of stress, otherwise have been good all day.

Went dancing for an hour in the evening then unfortunately went hypo later on and had to eat something

Thursday 15th March

Work ok. I have eaten well again today. Well so far anyway. I am still craving my cadburys creme egg/s unfortunately.

Went on shopping trip to Asda, kids stressed me out so ate 2 pacs lite crisps when I got home, silly me, not the end of the world though. I did resist buying cad creme eggs which is good"!

Friday 16th March

Tired. Am going line dancing tonight for 2 hours though. Was not very good with evening meal, ate a bit too much but don't care really.

Saturday 17th March 2007

THAT top

Nice and sunny out today (though as far as I know we are promised snow at some point this weekend?). We are going to go for a walk this morning (R can go on her bike). I did 2 hours dancing last night.

OMG........well, last night I went dancing with Sue and I wore a tunic type top (she had a tunic type top on too - all the style at the moment). Anyway, a new woman joined the class and was in between Sue and I. Part way through the class she said (Laughing) "I hope neither of you two are going to go into labour next week"

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I.......wha?..........Eh?.............Huh?..................

I heard Sue saying "No we're just fat" and I hastily said "No no it's my top, it's the style of the top"

As Sue said in the car going home later, it wasn't the fact she thought we were pregnant that was bad it was that she thought we were possibly THAT close to giving birth!!!!!!!!!!!

I have never laughed so much (on way home in car). I said "well that's me going on the Slim Fast then" and Sue said yes, her diet starts next week!!!

J, me and R the other day.

We went for a really long walk (we were out for 4 hours), we did stop for lunch in a cafe which was nice.

Sunday 18th March

Will we get any snow?

It is very windy out there. Not sure what we are doing today, nothing much I don't suppose. It is Mothers Day today. Unfortunately we are not able to go and see my mum but she will be coming here the week after next so I will make sure I have a nice late pressy for her.

Oh happy families. Made everyone breakfast (we all had bacon toasties). I gave everyone a little job they could do for me today. J to wipe the walls down on the stairs (as mucky handprints all down there)and to tidy his room, and Neil to clean the bathroom and R to tidy her room. Did anyone do anything NO. Neil whinged cos he has had to go for petrol and nip to the shop. J is just playing guitar in his room, R is playing.

Had a sleep in the afternoon as have had stomach ache (and weirdly enough lots of palpitations which felt a bit scary late yesterday and earlier today), anyway got up made tea and caught sight of R's hair. She had cut the fringe (to almost no fringe), basically hacked at her hair with the scissors. YIKES. Luckily it does not look that bad.

Don't know how I will have done on the scales tomorrow,we shall see.

R made me this pretty little box (she coloured it all in herself) and wrote lovely little messages on it for me.........it is so sweet, you can't really see how much work she did on it in this pic THANK YOU R.

9.30 pm. Am feeling yuck. Difficult to describe, just yuck, kind of yucky and sicky and not quite right.