Monday 6th July

WOW it's 1pm and about half an hour ago or more we had the most fantastic amount of rain and hail. The road looked totally flooded.

I walked R to school this morning and it was quite sunny. There was a notice in the school playground that sports day was cancelled today till next week (R was pleased!).

Have just discovered Wirral TV- wow, it's great, lots of information and little films from all over the Wirral from allsorts of people (including those from Wirral TV). It is reall ynice to find something relating to your area (where you live) that is so positive and fun and makes you proud of where you live. Wirral TV

Phew it's warm again, look slike rain out, but it's fairly warm. Have to go get R from school soon.
Am in work tomorrow, I got photos of the Race For Life to give to people in work (those of us who did the Race) and am going to get a few blown up large and put them in the department because they are so nice and look such fun.

The kids by the car last night, we got soaked, it poured down but they chatted and actually enjoyed the walk!
View across West Kirby Lake last night, you can just see North Wales partly covered by the rain/mist clouds! The Lake is drained at the moment for repair but there is something going on about the contractors doing it went bust?
Another pic of West Kirby, a little cafe/bar by the lake.
The Lake, drained, pic frm last night.
A pic of R and I by the Lake in 2007, it is lovely to walk round there in the summer.

There is a girl in R's class who on and off over the last 6 months has been friendly to her then very nasty, taunting her, pushing her, following her demanding her attention etc. I thought she and R would be good friends when the girl first started the school last year. But R has been SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO stressed on and off and was almost at breaking point today because of how the girl has been with her. I have not as yet been to the school. Some months ago we got a load of reverse charge phone calls from 2 mobile numbers, turns out it was from this girl and a boy, they cost us £32 (as R had accepted them as she didn't know not too and they had been going on just after school when I was not at home. I took one of them one night and said no and that is how I found out what had been happening. I put a ban with BT on all reverse ccharge calls - BT said they could not give me the tele[hone numbers ( 2 of them) but said they were all from the same 2 people making different names up for each call. J had answered a few of them and the person (girl) had asked for R.
I was so cross. I phoned the girls house, she answered the phone and refused to pass the phone on to an adult and was very rude to me. I did not approach the girls mum at the school as did not have proof positive that it was her but R said she knew it was her as one 2 of the occasions she had spoken to her on the reverse phone call.

I told the school and named the girl but they could do nothing as once again I had no proof.
Today R came home from school very upset, as the girl has been horrid to her today, asking all the boys would they go out with R and singing horrid songs about R in front of her.
Mistakenly I thought it would all 'blow away' and was somewhat dismayed when I saw this girl is to be in her class at high school. Again I said to R, not to worry (the other day), things would be ok, she'll make better friends and so on, but after today I was so upset and stressed myself that I emailed the High School and told them how I felt and how R felt. I always try to give people (kids) the benefit of the doubt and I am not saying R is a complete angel but I duuno, I have seen this girl and her manner is not nice, she does not look like nice. I thought maybe she was shy, insecure etc? But bit by bit I just think she is nasty and horrid.
I don't know what will happen. I will phone the school tomorrow (high school) to see what they say. I don't want stress, I don't want R to be stressed. I had all that shit (stress) in work myself last year when I ended up in hospital because of one persons bullying behaviour - I was bullied (as were several other members of staff) for many many months.

Maybe I should have said something on the new parents evening as soon as I saw the girl was to be in her class? Now I feel bad cos I didn;t. R doesn't want to move class, but it mayhave to be? She likes her new teacher. Arghghghghgh NOW I AM STRESSED

We shall see. I shall see what the school says. R said she cannot face the last 2 weeks in school, I think I must speak to the primary school tomorrow (for all the good it may do, they do not always take notice)

I find it difficult to cope with, dealing with all this, it makes me upset and if I am like this how can I hep R?

  Tuesday 7th July

Spoke to R's school and got an email from the new high school . Hopefully everything will be ok. The high school will keep an eye on them both. Primary school are making sure they do not sit by each other. I have told R not to ignore the girl and be friendly etc, but I am keeping a close check on how she is - I do not want her upset. The girls are going to stay in the same class in high school and hopefully it will be okay and I know the school are now aware of things so will take action where needed.

Work was fine - just work.

Have been stress eating, so ha what's new! Am feeling very bloated and FAT. Am seriously considering going to Slimming World on Monday mornings - for a time anyway.

10.30pm - been thinking about it a lot and yep, I have decided to join Slimming World on Monday morning. Costs £4.50 a week. My Tuesday dance class is cancelled till September and the Wed and Fri dance classes will have a bit of a summer break so am going to use the money for the slimming club. I just feel I need something, a bit of weekly help. It has helped getting weighed in work each Friday and 5 lbs loss so far is better than nothing, but that is over about 7 weeks.
So, seeing as 2 people have done SO well in work with slimming clubs (WW and SW), who knows I may even enjoy it!!!!!! SO - roll on Monday!!!!!!! And no, up untill then I am not going to eat allsorts and everything..........

I am not happy at this weight at all, I don't want to be a size 18 (which I am). So I had better do something about it, or shut up!!!!!

  Wed 8th July 2009

R had a great induction day, she loved the lessons they got to do, I am so glad she liked it. She is very much looking forward to going to High School. I was working in the morning, caught the bus home. Then I walked to the village (1 mile) to meet R (but somehow missed her) so walked home again. Then got a call rom R saying thst she was in her nana n grandads and would I go to meet her, so again I walked to the village and then we walked home (all good exercise!).
Am sort of starting to follow the Slimming World diet (from what I can remember how to do it). As I said before, it is how I lost my 47 lbs in 2003/4. I did go back briefly about 3 years ago but gave up soon after.

I don't particularly want to hand over £4.50 a week to some huge DIET CLUB chain again. BUT, it has helped me in the past and so, well, why not give it another go. 2 people in work have done well so far at their slimming clubs.o yes, I will give it a go. THe meeting is 9.15am Monday morning. I have to go for a blood test at 8.45am. J said he will walk R to school (as he finished college on Friday). I'll have to get Neil's dad to take me along to the hospital for my blood tests and then drop me off where the Slimming World meeting is, then I can walk home from there as it isn't too far away from where I live. Monday mornings is a good time for the meetings. I thought about leaving it till R goes to high school in September but have decided that I can't wait.

  Thursday 9th July

Off to work in about 20 minutes. R has gone to school and J to college, Neil to work. It is parents evening tonight at school. R had the most fantastic school report (she brought it home yesterday), she got level 5's all all her SATS results.

I am sooooooooooooooooo looking forward to 2 weeks off from work. We have some days out planned. I would like us to go to Whitby, Cambridge and Bath and maybe Buxton and Bakewell. We might even go down to South Wales again? Obviously it depends on ££££££, but I am determined that we have some nice days out. All of us would love to go to London so that is another possibility.

11.20pm - Am TOTALLY enjoying Torchwood and it's been on every night this week, last night tomorrow.

  Friday 10th July

The sun is shining, oh and I've got to go to work - damn!!!!!! Am getting weighed in work and expecdt I have stayed the same (please don't let it be a gain!). I am still going to carry on with getting weighed in work and Slimming World. Have not been doing the wii Fit this last week or so, think I will get back to doing that next week (every day as I had been doing).
I AM going to get healthier and slimmer!!!!!!!

OK, have decided NOT to join Slimming World as such, but am going to follow their diet plan. A couple of the nurses and myself are going to do it in work. I got weighed htis morning in work and stayed the same this week. I have been getting weighed in work for 11 weeks (yikes) and so far have lost only 5 lbs (oh dear). SO, since I was successful with SW before, then I will try it again and get weighed in work each week and pay in my £2 (and get the money back at the end when I get to a goal.

OK! We bought some chips on the way home tonight (from work/picking up J who had been with his girlfriend) and WHO wants to cook on a Friday night after a long day in worl???? HUH? Not me! So yes, I had some chips, about half a bag I would say and 2 small slices wholemeal bread and butter (healthy!)

Tomorrow will be a good day!

Hehehe!!!!!!!!!

  Saturday 11th July

Arghghgh.....slight hangover!
No plans for today. Have tons of tidying to do in house and would like to go out at some point. Neil would stay in all weekend and not go out (but that drives me nuts).

Neil's brother Phil and his wife Angie are popping over from Australia nest week (Angies mum has not been well and is in hospital). They are here for 2 weeks. R is so excited about being able to see them and it will be great for Bill n Marie (Neil's mum n dad) to se them. Phil pops over here every now and then (they been in Australia for almost 18 yrs now).

We went here to Bromborough retail park for a look round. Also went to Abakan and got R a mask for her Black and White Masked Ball which is on Sunday 19th July.

Neil has taken J out so he can have a drive, J has his next driving lesson in the morning at 8am. We need to get J some decent clothes (ie not jeans) so he can look smart if he gets any job interviews. He has a few plain shirts so that is ok, but no pants (so we getting him a nice pair or 2 from Burton, might even get him some new shirts too. Not sure about shoes? He likes to go to Schuh in Liverpool

We went into OutFit in Bromborough which is a great shop, loads of stuff in there. I know where I'm going shopping when I've got some spare cash!

20 past midnight - am tired and am going to bed with my book (which I may manage a few pages of).
R tried her outfits on for her parties
Party 1 - Burgandy satin skirt (with net underskirt) and silver trim I sewed on to make it more partyish and shimmery purpley top
Party 2 - Tiered black rara skirt and white and silver top (with silver sandals)
Party - 3 Black satin skirt (with net) and black and white top (and a mask cos this is the Black n White Masked Ball)
Night-night.

Sunday 12th July 2009

8am and J has gone for his driving lesson. Today am making an effort and starting Slimming World plan!!!! And will go on the wii fit later for half an hour.

Went back to bed at 10am and pretty much slept till 5pm - yikes! Somehow I don't think I will sleep well tonight. Been looking at B&B's for when we are off work for the 2 weeks. Found a reasonable one in Scarborough for £140 for 2 nights with breakfast for the 4 of us. Would have liked to go to Bath or London but is so much more expensive. I think we will have to leave that one till later in the year.

10.30pm - Neil gets paid on the 21st so I am then going to book this B&B in Scarborough (called The Kenton). I SO need a little break and 2 nights is better than nothing. I would SO love a week or 2 away but we cannot this yar. We have never been to Scarborough, but have been to nearby Whitby which we like. 2 nights away B&B would be something to look forward to.Cannot get to sleep - arghghghghg. Not in the mood for reading , though am enjoying a book called Deep Heat at the moment.

"Ali is delighted to hear she has won first prize in Complete Woman Magazine's Most Romantic Couple of the Year Competition. There is just one problem: Ali has been dumped by her fiance and there is no way she can claim her prize - a romantic holiday for two in Antigua - on her own."

J is off college now, R is complaining cos it's sports day tomorrow and I think she is hoping for rain. I am off work tomorrow and have as per usual tons to do in the house.

Might go and get myself a cup of warm milk to help me get to sleep? On the other hand, of course getting to sleep will be difficult since I slept all flippin day (damn I should've got up - is a long time since I had a day in bed). What a total waste of a day. I am looking forward to 2 weeks off and hopefully I will do dtuff with the kids. We can go to the museums in Liverpool and go to Southport for a day out and meet Neil for lunch. Might even take the two of them on a day coach trip?