Monday 30th March

Weight - WHATEVER!

The 1850 Project Gig went really well. I was so pround of J ad Neil, Tony and Chris were brill too. J made everyone laugh all the time. I would say about 40 to 50 came along in the end.
A BIG thank you to Judith for all her hard work on the night (and before) and an even BIGGER thank you to her son Vaughnn (who is only 17) for organising the whole thing (the hall, the lightining, the PA system - all of it). He was very very professional and worked non stop from the very start.

I shall do a page of pics from the gig and post them.

I am so so so glad that Vaughnn had 3 cameras set up at different parts of the hall for the WHOLE gig

Mum n dad came and brought some buffett food which was nice of them, they did nt stay till the end though as had to get off to take over babysitting my sisters 2 kids who were with one of my other sisters - at least they went (don't think it was quite their scene though).

R and I got there at about 3.30pm and stayed there - I got home about 11pm.

They sounded FANTASTIC on stage, Neil and J sang really well, I cannot wait to see all the footage.I think it was the best 18th and 50th party we could ever have had. I shall also put a link up to video footage when I can. Tony was FANTASTIC on bass guitar and even did a few jokes on stage and he got the audience singing louder (they sang Happy Birthday!). Chris was brill on drums though poor thing was mostly covered in smoke from the smoke machine.

Thank you to all my friends in work who came along (Iris, Rachel, Elaine and Alan and their partners and Neil's work colleague and his fiancee. Thank you to my sister Ches who came along, thank you to my friend Sue and her son who was meant to be on the door but in the end didn't have to! and well, to everyone!

Neil and I went to Liscard in the morning (J had an inset day and went to a friends house), Neil and I had a nice time going round all the shops, also we went in an ok cafe for a bacon toastie and a coffee/tea. I am very fussy with cafe's. If they look in the tiniest bit scruffy or grotty I will not go in them, or if they look 'greasey cafe' type ones NO WAY, won't go in them (far too fussy I know!).

Got myself a new Wii ame, a Your Training Coach, so I can do all the yoga/aerobics and various other workouts etc - good fun but knackering - I did 45 minutes tonight. No plans for tomorrow other than tidying house/exercising when can/nitro morsing the bannisters and 2 and a half hour line dance class in evening!!!!!!! Phew! Am tired already!

 Tuesday 31st March

Will try to be calm and well, just calm today, ie not stresses. Must have MAJOR PMT as feeling VERY crappy and down and fed up and whingey and sad and angry and fed up and cheesed off and all that.
can't get the bloody top off the Nitromors (paint stripper) cos wanted to get going on the bannisters, bugger.

I need some pushing, need someone to make me eat healthier/do exercise! Personal trainer and dietician would be good! Ah well at least I have my Wii coach

This afternoon I did 20 minutes of the My Fitness coach but gave up after that cos it (the coach) was doing yoga stuff I could not do.

Am going dancing for just over 2 hours tonight - not terribly in the mood but maybe I'll feel better afterwards.

 Wednesday 1st April
April Fools Day! Also my mums birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM.

Neil had gone to work J has gone for the bus to college and I am trying to persuade R to actually get up.
Did the 2 and a half hours dancing last night which I enjoyed. Today need to pack for holiday as am in work tomorrow and Friday and I need to do some tidying up.

Am trying to be healthier with my food but I want to EAT and EAT and EAT!!!!!!

Mmmm....sugary donuts!
MMMM....full English Breakfast (without mushrooms please)
Mmmmmm.....pasta dish
MMMmmm...chcolate eclair
MMMmmm...fish and chipc
MMmmm....trifle
Mmmm...yummu panini
Arghghghghg am very hungry now after only having a Slim Fast for breakfast. Might just have to make myself a nice omelete in a moment!
Mmmmmm ...omelete

Judith came round for a coffee which was nice

Holy crap - this is my Virtual Model at the weight I am now (147 lbs or 10 st 7 lbs) and next to it is My Virtual Model at the weight I want to be again (as ye I was this weight in 2003/4 of 119 lbs - or 8 st 7 lbs. Whoo Ho I had better get doing something about it then hadn't I.

Line dancing is cancelled tonight as the teacher has hurt her knee. I think I shall definately go on the treadmill later.
An looking forward to our holiday, we go Friday night after I finish work. Neil and J are staying till Sunday night then they are off home as Neil has to go to work and J had to do some Physics sessions in college during the week. R and I are going to chill out, so lots of reading and some walking.

Ohhhhhhhh want cream cakes. Vream cakes will make me feel better, I just know they will.

Am feeling cheesed off, fed up, pissed off, stressed (choose reason) - money/hubby/money/house - ie state of/garden - ie state of/money/my weight and so on.

I did manage 20 minutes on treadmill earlier and walked to school for R.

 Thursday 2nd April

All my emails were junk ones, how boring is that. Have gone back on Facebook, for the time being anyway, well, untill I get fed up with it.

Work was ok. Got my new uniform, have got to make sure I do not eat too much whilst on holiday as it is already a bit too snug. Can someone PLEASE sed me some motivation as I hae none and can't be bothered and feel v fat and flabby and crappy and moody and all that.