Monday 13th April

10am kids still asleep. Had breakfast (good old Slim Fast). We are planning on going out for a walk later. Other than that - not a lot.

No more wine - I am giving it up AGAIN,
No more cake/chocolate etc binges - if I've gotta have some, then it's in moderation
I will make sure I do SOME exercise EVERY day.
Am tired of going round in circles, moaning about my weight - how long has this been going on - YEARS. Enough.
I will like myself more, or at least try!

Arggggggggggggggggggg my hair is greeney blonde in the daylight - a very weird colour. Had to go to Asda, how embarrassing. Got a darker colour as I think if I try to go lighter it might go even weirder.
Looked a bit like this it did, well kind of, only a bit darker which might look ok if I was 20, but at 45 well, not good really!

My hair is now ermmmmm..........darker again. Is very dark actually.

My hair is a LLITTLE bit darker than I intended it to be......
The 2nd pic was taken last night and the darker one was taken today about 5 minutes ago!
I like it darker but it means I have to wear some make-up otherwise people keep asking me am I ill. My skin is always very pale...so I shall have to slap on the blusher!

Tuesday 14th April

Am struggling to eat healthily. Feel a bit crappy tonight, just as well otherwise I would be VERY tempted to have a chocolate type binge.
Work was ok today, same old thing, bit blah.
Can't be arsed going on the treadmill, it does not appeal tonight. Am not in work now till Friday. Ah well.

Wed 15th April

Rain and more rain.DId ok 'eating' yesterday and even managed 20 minutes on the Wii Fit last night....whoo hoo. It's 10am.....am having late breakfast of good old Slim Fast.
Debating whether to stop doing this web site?

2pm - Am off to the Opticians in half an hour. Kids have decided they don't want to come along (lazy so and so's), on the other hand maybe an hour or so on my own would be nice.
Feeling in a particularly pissed off, cheesed off, fed up mood lately. De-activated my Facebook Account YET again - cannot stand the hassle of it. Am still on Twitter but only by a thread - don't see the point in it (Twitter that is).
Maybe my mood will improve as the rest of the day goes on?

Just about to go and Watch Pretty in Pink (as you can see we are doing the 80's films!
Thanks to Kate who just rang me to see how I was cos she said I sounded so fed up here on my web site. Yep I am fed up, very in fact, but hopefully this will go away.

Thursday 16th April

Been washing my hair to take out some of the colour as I think it was far too dark for me. I mean, I liked it for a short time. But too dark. I tend to mess around with my hair cos it's something I can change immdeiately (unlike my weight).. Maybe wigs would be better!

Tidied house this morning. Watched a film in afternoon with R. That's pretty much it - how boring is that really. Pretty boring.

Friday 17th April

Work was actually ok today. Didn't really want to go in, but enjoyed it in the end. Just in a blah mood lately. Still feeling fed up but trying my best not to be.
If we do nothing else this weekend, I want us all to go for a few walks.

I used to have a good sense of humour, really I did and it sometimes came across in my writing here. Not lately though - how flipping awful of me (am using different words as I type this!).

Bugger it. Am going to do a week of Slim Fast - yep the powderey, too artificially sweet stuff that is meant to satisfy you as a proper meal would? HUH?
BUT... and this is a big BUTT.......I need a kick start to losing this weight. Am like a broken record - but I DO NOT WANT TO BE THIS WEIGHT, I HATE IT.
So I got to do something about it like
go on treadmill every day
go for walks with family when can
eat less
eat healthier
and so on and so on. And I gotta get doing it now otherwise I shall be saying these same things in 6 months time (ie October) and I do not want to be this weight in October (cos am going away for a dance weekend and am not spending the whole weekend hating how I look).

I GOT TO BURN THE LEGGINGS........I must not wear them ever again and I must ditch the black - black anything as black is not actually slimming and just makes you look like crap (unless you are under the age of 25)

SO............I haven't got a plan as such, a diet plan that is. Diets suck anyway. So am going to go with the above (move more, eat less and healthier).

Hmmmmm.........better get fruit and veggie shopping ASAP.

Just gone midnight!
Watched Gordon Ramsays Kitchen Nightmares USA - cool!!!!!!!!!!! Neil and I could not agree on a film, I wanted a comedy, he wanted to watch another Steven Seagal film. Want to watch Knowing sometime soon. Am getting tired of Twilight but can't wait till the new one comes out - New Moon.
Got a Bite Me badge from Ebay!!!! Ah well, got to be a bit childish.

Saturday 18th April 2009

Well, gorgeous day out, v sunny. Run around morning (J to Bhaed to meet a girl) and R to Bhead so she could buy a new book.

Had Slim Fast for bfast and a yummy wholemeal tuna baguette with LOTS of salad for lunch, ok did spoil it by having 2 (yes 2) packets of cheap crisps, but let me say here - cheap crisps are crap, taste pretty crap and the bag is full of air. But those air filled cheap crap crisps cost me 200 cals - how awful is that!

We (me Neil and R) are off for a walk now, well, Neil and I are walking R is going on her bike (I will have a go too!).

SOme pics from our walk/cycle (I did pretty much all the cycling!)

Neil and R as we set off
Not too far from our house, could walk here in 10 minutes
Me cycling in the distance!
Arghghg me hair........

Just down the road from our house, me getting ready to go off

We had a nice time, we were out about 2 hours in all.

Snnday 19th April

Wow is v sunny out again this morning. Is now 9am, have had fairly healthy breakfast of wholemeal toast (thanks Neil), have washed hair and am half dressed. Kids still fast asleep....not for long! We are going to go and do another long walk today, though poor Neil says his feet are hurting from yesterday...still....we need the exercise.
Watched 16 Candles (Molly Ringwald) last night, have not seen that for years, really good film, totally enjoyed it.

Had a really nice walk round Thurstaston Hill. I'll put a few pics up later. OMG do I look BIG on the pics - scary and arghghghghghghghg. Does not help that am wearing sports leggings and smack type top either!

It was hot and sunny so we only walked (climbed) for about an hour, still it was nice.